I noticed that since I know, what is stimming and that many autistic and other neurodivergent people stim constantly, i start feeling shame while stimming in public, it comes to my mind, that others may think of me that I'm autistic, although I don't have such diagnosis. Before I heard many times, that I should stop doing these weird things but I didn't care and just answered something like leave me alone or I'm doing it with my own hands not with yours etc. But now I feel annoyed by my own stimming. I don't know what to do. I stim automatically, I rock, I stim with my fingers, pull my skin etc. I should probably stop thinking about it but somehow can't, it's maybe only in my head. I can't stop stimming because it feels like there is too much energy in me, it shakes me from inside and I would explode. Does anyone suppress stimming? How to cope? Is it even possible? I feel weird when sitting on the playground, my daughter plays, other kids too, other parents chat and laugh and I'm the only weirdo sitting eith earplugs and rocking on the sides or back forth.