Hi!
I’m currently sitting on the floor crying. Too much information? Sorry, I think I just have to share some thoughts. I’ve got an oral exam tomorrow morning and no matter how much I study, new stuff just keeps coming up. I’m tired. Have been for days. There’s a deep sense of panic and I know that this kind of anxiety isn’t necessarily autism related. In addition to my spiking anxiety though, I recently found out, that I’m gonna be questioned by a basically unknown person (seen her, but never even talked) tomorrow instead of my regular teacher. It freaks me out to think about this and I just feel like I’m going to fail. My anxiety already messed up my time management on the written exams and now this?
I do not know how to cope. I have to do this tomorrow, but don’t know how to calm down at all. My mind just keeps racing, I’m sobbing constantly, had a small meltdown earlier and a panic attack an hour and a half ago. Ever since everything changed last minute, it’s just no longer manageable (I’m surprised, I’m able to post now after reading that e-mail).
Sorry for freaking out on all of you now. I don’t know what to do.
Have a good Sunday evening nonetheless!