Feeling something but don’t know what it is and why I’m close to start crying

This picture shows as accurately as possible my emotional state. I don’t even know what would help me. I started realising that this is one of my life long problems and have no idea what to do about it. I feel so much fatigue that I can’t do anything, I’m stuck. Recently I continued my project - tram lines and time tables but now I can’t even do this. 

Just sharing, not sure why. Maybe anyone experiences similar or has any advice.

sorry for pessimistic post, tried to make it short

Parents
  • Have you painted this? It’s really good! 
    I’m sorry you’re struggling at the moment. I imagine there’s not a single person in this community that doesn’t relate. I often feel completely exhausted by life - as do the other autistic people in my family. One thing I try to practice now is acceptance. We feel what we feel, and if we fight it or run away from it we usually end up feeling worse and that’s just more exhausting. So try to just allow the feeling to be there - and take reassurance from the fact that everything in life is impermanent - both the good things and the bad things. So however you’re feeling now it will change, practice self care, try to cultivate what joy you can by focusing on even the smallest pleasures in your life - such as drinking a hot chocolate, or making a toasted sandwich, or sitting in the sunshine. I find listening to music particularly helpful when my mood is low. I also find getting into a good series on tv streaming good too - because I get into the story and ‘forget myself’. Being autistic isn’t easy, and we need to build up a little ‘library’ of strategies to turn to when we’re struggling. For me going out for a walk really helps, 

    Thank you for sharing how you feel - it helps us all on here to know that we’re not alone. 

Reply
  • Have you painted this? It’s really good! 
    I’m sorry you’re struggling at the moment. I imagine there’s not a single person in this community that doesn’t relate. I often feel completely exhausted by life - as do the other autistic people in my family. One thing I try to practice now is acceptance. We feel what we feel, and if we fight it or run away from it we usually end up feeling worse and that’s just more exhausting. So try to just allow the feeling to be there - and take reassurance from the fact that everything in life is impermanent - both the good things and the bad things. So however you’re feeling now it will change, practice self care, try to cultivate what joy you can by focusing on even the smallest pleasures in your life - such as drinking a hot chocolate, or making a toasted sandwich, or sitting in the sunshine. I find listening to music particularly helpful when my mood is low. I also find getting into a good series on tv streaming good too - because I get into the story and ‘forget myself’. Being autistic isn’t easy, and we need to build up a little ‘library’ of strategies to turn to when we’re struggling. For me going out for a walk really helps, 

    Thank you for sharing how you feel - it helps us all on here to know that we’re not alone. 

Children
  • I often feel exhausted for no obvious reason and sleep and rest does not help me. Watching anything on tv is exhausting and I can’t watch long because of sensory issues. Binge eating sweets is also not good - I already gained some weight and it makes no difference in my mood or feeling. Doing my hobby is also exhausting and I feel something like trapped in this body and looking ways to free myself.