Abusive relationships

I don't feel like I've ever had a non abusive relationship, I've had 4 long term relationships and whilst the abuse hasn't been physical, its certainly been psychological and only looking back do I see how damaging they've been. I'm so much better off on my own and never want another relationship again.

Does anyone else feel the same?

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  • I do and I don't. I find myself wanting another relationship but at the same time I don't because I'm scared of getting hurt again. I've only dated one time before, I tried online dating and met a seemingly really nice man but he had a bad temper and would take it out on me. When I had meltdowns he wasn't supportive and would be horrible and say I wasn't Autistic and used it as an excuse. When I tried to leave he apologised and I didn't leave him for a long time because I thought he would change.

    The mental and emotional effects his abuse caused me still affects me now, and it's been over 6 years since we broke up. I haven't seen or heard from him since but psychologically I am still feeling the effects of what he put through me.

    Now I'm on my own I am happier but I am isolated and lonely. I have no friends and I rarely mix with others, always too anxious. But part of me still wants a relationship but I also don't. It's all very complicated and I can't make sense of it.

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  • I do and I don't. I find myself wanting another relationship but at the same time I don't because I'm scared of getting hurt again. I've only dated one time before, I tried online dating and met a seemingly really nice man but he had a bad temper and would take it out on me. When I had meltdowns he wasn't supportive and would be horrible and say I wasn't Autistic and used it as an excuse. When I tried to leave he apologised and I didn't leave him for a long time because I thought he would change.

    The mental and emotional effects his abuse caused me still affects me now, and it's been over 6 years since we broke up. I haven't seen or heard from him since but psychologically I am still feeling the effects of what he put through me.

    Now I'm on my own I am happier but I am isolated and lonely. I have no friends and I rarely mix with others, always too anxious. But part of me still wants a relationship but I also don't. It's all very complicated and I can't make sense of it.

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