Hey all I’m feeling really lonely, I just don’t fit in anywhere and sometimes don’t want to be here
… I won’t act on that thought but I wish I had friends that understood me. I don’t know where I’m going work wise and what the future holds. No one seems to stick around very long. I don’t know what I’m asking for here just venting and wishing for a group of likeminded people in my life. I’m lacking love and support. Anyone feel the same? I’m sure you do. 32yo/F
Hey AngeAlien, I know what this feels like and I'm sorry it's all weighing so heavy right now. Kinda piggybacking your post to vent myself but I've been on the receiving end of full on bullying this year (something I naively didn't think possible at 34!) and feel isolated, stupid and like I can't trust myself or anyone else. I feel like pressing the eject button every day and I'm sad there's no one to step in and help, does that sound familiar? I get frustrated that I just have to keep doing everything on my own. People say it's not that way, there are always people to help but that feels like it has to be absolute crisis. I know there are helplines but also how hard it is to reach out, especially when you can't physically talk/explain. (I've found Papyrus helpline helpful, if that's anything.) Ultimately I know it doesn't help with building up your life to something that feels worthwhile or secure though, I feel that. You just have to keep plugging away and it's EXHAUSTING. My business is in the bin, my rented house has a roof leak the landlord won't fix and I have to move out (and probably in with yet more strangers), my family think I'm making mountains out of molehills - it's really, really hard to get taken seriously. It feels impossible to find people who understand, but I'm guessing there's more than a few here so keep reaching out. Don't give up hope, just do the next thing next and do little nice things until you feel a bit better to make some plans? That's my aim anyway! You're not on your own with this, I promise 
