Is it only me dealing with it or others here also know this feeling? Today I was super slow, I felt like my body does not belong to me, like I didn’t have full control over my muscles, I also had head spinning, I literally tripped over my own legs few times. While my mom says it’s a weather my colleague said it may be something more serious. I’m still waiting for an appointment. Today it wasn’t very busy but with my slowed actions and reactions I felt like I couldn’t cope with anything. And there was a funny situation. We had a return of goods and the procedure is that you have to indicate the reason of return. So I wrote it, showed my manager and he giggled and said “remove the hole in the bag” and I wrote it literally as he said. When he saw that he got confused and started laughing. And he asked me to remove the whole line. Then I realized that I understood it too literally and also started laughing. It was funny. But less funny was that first I couldn’t stop laughing but then suddenly my laugh turned into historical cry in a second. And I have no idea why. I wasn’t offended or anything. I experienced that long time ago as kid teenager and young adult, then it was somehow better. Now everything hits me stronger than ever. I’m concerned that others at work will gossip about me and something finally reaches my boss and he will not prolong my contract. When I was crying, I started shaking and then any noise and even the music everything was wrong painful irritating etc. I feel like my emotions are like tsunami and I’m unable to control, regulate, escape or recognize them. I just start crying out of nowhere. Is there anything I can do about it?
