Published on 12, July, 2020
I had a good day, although feeling a bit more chilled after eating late in the day. Felt need for brain food - protein.
Had all day in my head processing, I like to think it was constructive for a change. I bought a trumpet the other day and blew my first few notes while other occupant was out, felt elated actually. ve strummed over the years and drummed in 20s 30s. Love singing as it's my best instrument. But excited to spontaneously decide on a wind instrument and immediate feed back from blowing some clean accurate notes
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I joined this just now and first thing I saw was some kind of dynamics in discussions that were a bit heated. I suppose I'm just here because I'm dipping a toe in community (?) Never have I been a huge one for joining groups - although I've been in music groups performing.. that was good for facing fears but I found it difficult to talk to audience after performing.. my band mates would be straight in there to receive compliments but I would feel like i needed to get drunk or retreat afterwards. So yeah I think a life time of coping with 'something' using alcohol. I'm currently off of booze a month and also SSRi and I've felt more uncomfortable but physically starting to feel better. So I'm ready to try and deal with unmedicated me again.. and looking for clues.
I'm not Bob said:. I'm currently off of booze a month
I read that as meth (lol)...oh that's good, booze is good for no one !
Yeah, singing is cool. But can you do a snake dance like Axl rose. Although Slash was drunk and most of guns and roses were off their gourd, Axl was surprisingly sober most of the time i hear, oh i'm infodumping.nevermind
Welcome to the community. Old men are welcome here too. I’m a young man so have not dealt with all the things you have like being undiagnosed all my life. I wasn’t diagnosed up until I turned 18 so yeh some birthday present ehh? Haha. It can make you or brake you you know? Being autistic. It’s not as bad as people say. It’s manageable for me. As long as I can manage my inflammation I seem to feel better. Dunno I guess it all ties into autism and inflammation how the inflammation causes glutamate toxicity in the brain and anxiety and depression through depletion of dopamine etc. I have also struggled with alcohol too being autistic and struggling with anxiety etc. You’re not alone here friend. Do you have any things you like doing like going out partying or going to nightclubs or festivals or football games?