Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello all,
So I work for the civil service so it is mandatory to work two days in the office. Even though I've struggled with this for some time, it's getting to me more and more. I've asked for dimmer, quitter areas. However, due to the building they 'can't' control specific lights, and my floor apparently doesn't have a quite area. I have sever anxiety and long term depression so some days it is worse. I'm finding it unbearable going into the office. I don't sleep well the night before, and the florescent lights and the noise is making me feel nauseous and it gets worse if someone sits on the desk next to me.
They have allowed me to wear noise cancelling headphones. However, The only other thing they suggested was get tinted glasses... Which ultimately would leave me at loss of money. Which I don't mind to an extent if it helps. However, I feel like I'm just getting phubbed of sometimes.
I was wondering if anyone else has felt like this or been is similar situations? and is there anyway you think they would allow me to try dropping down to one day in the office? I have a feeling they won't and I'm just clutching at straws here. But I'm so tired of masking and feeling sick for days because of this.
I find it so hard to talk about my feelings, especially in person, so when they come over and ask me how I am I just go yeah just doing work or not bad...I've tried writing emails to explain but I don't think they understand. I hate feeling like I'm being unreasonable even thinking about seeing if they would allow me to only do one day in the office as a reasonable adjustment.
I'm just so tired of fighting this never ending battle and trying to endure everything. I just want to go into hibernation. Working 40 hours a week just isn't a good work life balance. Thank you for reading, sorry for moaning.