How do you stim / self soothe?

I was also denied these pleasures and did them in private like a criminal or just went numb

I Enjoy very much to

rock

smell everything

taste metals (not swallow)

throw things - not in a angry way, well maybe in meltdown.

stroke tree bark (my fav), also velour and other textures

fold paper

jump

clap

slam flat hand on table for the sound

swing my lower legs while in a tall enough seat or chair

sing and talk out loud to myself

recite

raise and lower my arms

dance, a lot

gaze at rhythmically moving lights and objects like spangled water or flags in the wind and dance with them.

I don't think I do anything that could be called stimming, do all autists stim?

My list is by no means exhaustive! (haha, exhaustive)

I am very happy to hear you are not punished for it! that is awesome! Let it all hang out!

I had been speaking of my childhood when I mentioned being "denied". I was a run away for a reason.

it is part of you so do not worry just don't hurt yourself

I also do some things from your list! And I do them not only in private. No matter how many times I’m told to stop. I stop it for a minute and then subconsciously start again. The people who try to stop me get fed up. My granny tells me that I behave like a psychically sick. I stopped caring about it. It’s better for me to stim and regulate than having meltdowns on daily basis, for the witnesses the first option is also better. My stimming does not hurt anyone except lip picking. Sometimes I do it to the point of bleeding but since I know why I do it I started controlling this stim to change it into something safer. 

I also do some things from your list! And I do them not only in private. No matter how many times I’m told to stop. I stop it for a minute and then subconsciously start again. The people who try to stop me get fed up. My granny tells me that I behave like a psychically sick. I stopped caring about it. It’s better for me to stim and regulate than having meltdowns on daily basis, for the witnesses the first option is also better. My stimming does not hurt anyone except lip picking. Sometimes I do it to the point of bleeding but since I know why I do it I started controlling this stim to change it into something safer. 

I am very happy to hear you are not punished for it! that is awesome! Let it all hang out!

I had been speaking of my childhood when I mentioned being "denied". I was a run away for a reason.

it is part of you so do not worry just don't hurt yourself