What's anger like for you?

For me, it's a shameful and terrifying experience, a total loss of control during which I take actions I would never normally contemplate.

For me, I'm curious whether this represents a typical reaction for someone with ASD or if it's more a product of my emotional repression and/or childhood PTSD

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  • i manage  to always stay the same, never seemingly showing emotions to others, everyone thinks im chill and ask me if i smoke canabis with how chill i appear and never changing in my expression or never seeming to care.... but my face doesnt express how i feel, i can feel extreme anger. but i can lash out when it tips over... so id be chill and flat looking, no issues, then next minute id smash my fist into a object. which then catches people off guard as they thought i was chill and didnt show any emotion.

    im not sure though, maybe the anger could also be a screen for sadness or a cope for sadness as when i break the anger i get sadness beneath it. although not sure if thats just sometimes, or maybe if the anger is so high that my control of my anger is perhaps making me sad.... or maybe i want to act and harm people in my anger and me controlling and denying that due to common civility is perhaps then acting against me and making me sad...or maybe im sad that im being pushed closer and closer into wanting to harm someone when i dont want that.  could be everything, depending on circumstance.

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  • i manage  to always stay the same, never seemingly showing emotions to others, everyone thinks im chill and ask me if i smoke canabis with how chill i appear and never changing in my expression or never seeming to care.... but my face doesnt express how i feel, i can feel extreme anger. but i can lash out when it tips over... so id be chill and flat looking, no issues, then next minute id smash my fist into a object. which then catches people off guard as they thought i was chill and didnt show any emotion.

    im not sure though, maybe the anger could also be a screen for sadness or a cope for sadness as when i break the anger i get sadness beneath it. although not sure if thats just sometimes, or maybe if the anger is so high that my control of my anger is perhaps making me sad.... or maybe i want to act and harm people in my anger and me controlling and denying that due to common civility is perhaps then acting against me and making me sad...or maybe im sad that im being pushed closer and closer into wanting to harm someone when i dont want that.  could be everything, depending on circumstance.

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