Published on 12, July, 2020
I've been getting frustrated with myself. I try and try to fit in and to be normal but nothing ever changes. I see people and I get intense anxiety and that makes my head spin and I feel sick and sweaty. I don't get why I struggle so much with the seemingly simplest things like answering the phone or going outside.
I don't understand myself. Everything I try results in intense anxiety and it leaves me exhausted and completely overwhelmed, sometimes for days after.
Now I've even been in touch with my GP and she referred me to mental health *gags* and they were useful AF and decided I needed to be detained just because I struggle with ordinary autism problems.
I tried working too and they let me go after a week.
I'm frustrated with myself because I can't be normal like everyone else seems to be like. My mum said to me last week why can't I be normal.
I've tried explaining my situation and how I find certain things difficult but my mum doesn't believe me and no one else seems to.
Just want to scream.
Hi Dana - So sorry to hear about all this, life can be incredibly overwhelming at times but I'm warmed to see that others here have picked up on your thread and are sharing their stories and advice with you - That is what makes this community so great
I wanted to send you some links to advice on our website that might also be helpful:
You may like to have a look at the mental health section of our website which has useful links to information and advice about a range of mental health issues: https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health OR more specifically:
You may wish to read over our information on benefits: https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/benefits-and-money/benefits . You can also find more information on benefits through the Citizen’s Advice website: https://www.citizensadvice.org.uk/benefits/
You can also browse our website for lots of other advice and guidance on a wide range of information about autism, including what autism is, socialising and relationships, employment, benefits and social care.
Sorry if that is a lot of info for now, but maybe something in there sticks out and could be useful at some point
Best,
SarahMod
Hi Sarah! Oh my gosh thank you so much for all the links and for all the support with this. I didn't really want to come here and moan about my life, it all sort of got to me and erupted like a volcano - but I'm overwhelmed by all your support and advice on where to go from here! Thank you so much, it's just a big help in itself knowing there's people who care, and comforting to know that people can understand what it's been like.
Thank you for all the links and advice. I've bookmarked them so I can check them out and also return to them if I require them again.
I did Google but there's so much to read and I wasn't sure what's helpful when you're autistic. A lot of it is very overwhelming and stressful to think about.
I really do appreciate you taking the time to help. Thank you!
Have a lovely Sunday!