It's becoming more and more common for me to have intense, consuming waves of suffocating loneliness.
I know it's normal to feel this sometimes, especially given I am still mourning the very recent loss of a 4 and a half year long relationship. My ex partner was truly my best friend, and if I'm honest, my only friend. So I'm now left with crushing feelings of loneliness. I have my mum and sister, but there's a longing for true and meaningful connections with friends that I just don't have.
Ive been pushing myself to meet people, but sometimes the surface level conversation you have to have with new people you meet just highlights further to me the lack of deep connection I crave. It just feels so heavy. I really feel like I don't know how to connect with people, or reach out with the real me.
I have moments where the loneliness isn't as strong. I get out to nature, take moments to feel present, feel a part of something bigger. But its still there, a dull ache.
Anyway, this post became a lot sadder than I first intended. Please feel free to share your own experiences of loneliness and of craving connection.