I've been there and it's really hard to climb back out of that hole. I found that you just need one thing to focus on, whether it's a pet, person or even something you enjoy/ed. Sometimes the darkness can feel all encapsulating but you can find a spark or sliver of light to help guide you out.

Keep trying the Samaritans or Papyrus hopelink 247 webchat.

Please don't give up, the world is better with you in it. You can do this, just keep going.

I've been there and it's really hard to climb back out of that hole. I found that you just need one thing to focus on, whether it's a pet, person or even something you enjoy/ed. Sometimes the darkness can feel all encapsulating but you can find a spark or sliver of light to help guide you out.

Keep trying the Samaritans or Papyrus hopelink 247 webchat.

Please don't give up, the world is better with you in it. You can do this, just keep going.

thanks Herge, I can't contact Papyrus as I'm over 35, who knew suicidal thoughts were ageist! 
I've been here before, many times and hauled myself back out of the hole, just don't know if I've got the strength left to do it again