Knee Jerk bad reaction

Hi all,

Just want to tell this. Thats all. 

Last night i spoke to my mum. We had a nice chat, and i recommended a film i genuinely thought she would like. 

About an hour later i get a text from her that just says 'what the F'. No kiss or anything. 

So i reply with ' I thought you would have liked it'. 

I get one word back. Again no kiss. 'Idiot'. 

So this hurt quite badly. More than i think it should, and my go to is self harm. 

Im now at work and have taken the dressing off and have just glued my leg shut. Im ok. So moderators you dont need to send me a message. Im not badly hurt. 

I feel a little foolish noiw though. I realise my reaction was quick and responsive and i didnt think through the situation properly. My mum has a warped sense of humour, like myself, and im certain she was joking. Just last night it stung me quite badly to just see that one word 'idiot' from my mum. 

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  • Hi Dogtooth, 

    I just wanted to say I am sorry this happened. 

    It sounds like your mum needs a couple of lessons in how to communicate politely. 

    I also struggle with SH so I know how that feels - really horrible. Sorry you have to hide this from your partner, that's a shame - I would hope that while they hate the act itself they can remain supportive in the circumstances. Come back and write more if you need to vent. I know it won't mean anything coming from a stranger on the internet but: I really want you to stay safe. Be gentle with yourself. 

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  • Hi Dogtooth, 

    I just wanted to say I am sorry this happened. 

    It sounds like your mum needs a couple of lessons in how to communicate politely. 

    I also struggle with SH so I know how that feels - really horrible. Sorry you have to hide this from your partner, that's a shame - I would hope that while they hate the act itself they can remain supportive in the circumstances. Come back and write more if you need to vent. I know it won't mean anything coming from a stranger on the internet but: I really want you to stay safe. Be gentle with yourself. 

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