Struggling

I'm not sure what happened to what I wrote yesterday  hopefully it will come back.

Thank you for your kindness and support. I really appreciate it so thank you. I'm looking forward to reaching those better days.

I like this community a lot. It seems a good place full of good people. I'm glad I found it.

I was going to reply to this last night but fell asleep and now I see your text has disappeared. Well. Most of it. 

What I will say is you are strong and you will get through these darker times to better and brighter times. 

Joining this community was the best thing you could have done. It is the best autism resource out there.

Keep the faith K. 

It's a different way of life. I can't imagine not living here.

Aww what's her name? I love cats they are so soft and adorable. Are you enjoying having a kitten? :) 

It was nice to talk/type with you as well. Thank you :) you really brightened up my day.

Excellent!

I grew up in a farm, and wish I kept on the family role.

I'm currently looking after a kitten I got a week and a half ago. She thinks my hand and phone are mice.

Maybe with practice, the art will come along.  

anyway getting late for me.  I hope you enjoy the rest of your evening.

it was nice to talk(?) to you! :-)   ... is it 'talk' or 'type' ... i'm confused! :-)

I love art. Drawing and painting is something I'd love to do but I've tried and am terrible at both haha.

Livestock. Only chicken and sheep now but years ago it was cows and pigs as well and my mum had horses. My dream is to get it like that again but I'm not sure I'll ever get to that but I hope so!

that you enjoy it is what matters! :-)   Definitely more art that i do.  

If you dont mind me asking, do you life on a livestock farm or crops?  I have to think that either is a lot of work!

That sounds lovely. I'm not very good at cycling I don't seem to have the balance for it... I spent most of my time falling off :P I do like watching the seasons change though seeing the flowers and trees change, it's a beautiful sight.

I'm not very arty either. My ex was creative I think he would have been good at art but I'm only ok at colouring. I just enjoy it but I guess you don't have to be good at it :) 

i used to cycle along a canal tow-path to a place i used to work. i loved watching the change in seasons, watching the little ducks and cygnets grow up over the weeks and months. it was nice.

unfortunately i have never been anything 'art'.  just does seem to fit in my head. i am glad you get enjoyment from it! :-)

I love colouring I find it therapeutic and rewarding when I see it completed at the end. I like colouring landscapes and animals best. I love living on a farm, lots of fields to walk through and wildlife to see. When I was little me and my twin used to spend hours in the fields playing and watching the animals.

colouring .. nice.  what are your preferred subjects? animals, landscapes or maybe something more abstract?
I kinda like the idea of living on a farm, that must be nice to have space around you?

I live on a farm and have been restoring bits of it but my exhaustion makes it harder sometimes. I do colouring as well, that always brightens me up.

Thank you. I'm taking things steady and hoping slowly but surely things start to get better.

really sorry to hear you are having a tough time.  Do you have any activities that can help you break the cycle? maybe even going for a walk?

Stay strong ..you have been through a lot.  Be kind to yourself and look forward and not back if you can.  Keep reaching out on here and more of us will relate and chat.