Let me start again, simple and honest.
Now, since the very beginning of my joining a social site like DeviantArt, when I was 24, I started off perfectly aware, knowing the obvious right and wrong. So, basically, just wrote normal comments on various artworks and notes to people saying "that's nice" and "how do you do". Yes, nicey nicey to begin with always.
But, of course, not everyone will see that, I know. Especially not some female users, which, after I've been doing the right thing (greeting, introduction, etc.) at the start, for some reason they did not take interest, or are just busy, or don't have any kind of kindness. Those certain female users snapped at me, even though I wasn't doing a wrong thing, technically speaking. It's only them that think so.
With the thing about female users, that is why... I can feel pretty down about it, since I lack any good female friend as "just a friend", not "girlfriend". But I ask, casually, is there an honest girl somewhere here on NAS or elsewhere who might wish to build a new relationship with me? I only have male friends, that is. But I'm just saying, my mistakes in the past were unintended and natural. I always tried to do my best for right, not for wrong. Most of the time.
And before you might say "harassment", please note that, I do not like that word. It just makes me worse, that's all, especially when used against me. Today isn't brilliant for me, alright? Good.
Anyway... So yes, currently (but not always at least) I am feeling sad, that when I think about those unfortunate times I had before, female users lashing at me because of certain things that happened, it makes me depressed and "not worthy", as well that I wish there were properly nice girls as friends to have chats and understanding with, even if it is just only one friend that's enough already. Yes I admit I made problems before and they were just accidents, but forgive. I am just trying my best from now on. And about those female users I mentioned in the other topic, I know their behaviours, so I will leave them alone. Instead for now, I would of appreciated actual agreements of comfort from others and a kind girl somewhere who may seek to get connected with me. But, thing is, I don't choose to look into others' topics for the opportunity or such. Sorry, it's just how I feel.
