Autistic catatonia

Hi. I am new to this site, my mum is typing this as I am not able to think straight. I am 22 and have been very ill with autistic catatonia for over a year. I have had 16 Ect treatments and this made a difference for a while. But I now feel I am declining . Has anyone had any experience of this? Thank you

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  • Ive struggled with the definition of catatonia, and also the stereotype of catatonia, as prior to learning of the autism literature, I measured my understanding of catatonia against the movie K-Pax.
    Having said that, I used to have a high-pressure job in which it was simply unacceptable to overload, instead of being seen as having-had-enough, my bosses used my freezing as a cue to start pushing me. I used to find myself blacking-out as a felt too pressurised to meltdown, I used to find myself losing hours to my sub-concious, only coming-to at the end of the day. I used to go into work everyday will less and less ability to resist slinking into my inner-world, being completely enthralled and enamoured by it, only to have it evaporate and forgotten as I came-to. What seemed-like moments was actually 2-3 hours.  
    Back then I didn’t have any words to describe it, so I just called it acute-daydreaming, I thought of catatonia as nothingness, and I suppose that I was in a nothing-state, but it feels a lot different to be something and to observe something from afar. 

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  • Ive struggled with the definition of catatonia, and also the stereotype of catatonia, as prior to learning of the autism literature, I measured my understanding of catatonia against the movie K-Pax.
    Having said that, I used to have a high-pressure job in which it was simply unacceptable to overload, instead of being seen as having-had-enough, my bosses used my freezing as a cue to start pushing me. I used to find myself blacking-out as a felt too pressurised to meltdown, I used to find myself losing hours to my sub-concious, only coming-to at the end of the day. I used to go into work everyday will less and less ability to resist slinking into my inner-world, being completely enthralled and enamoured by it, only to have it evaporate and forgotten as I came-to. What seemed-like moments was actually 2-3 hours.  
    Back then I didn’t have any words to describe it, so I just called it acute-daydreaming, I thought of catatonia as nothingness, and I suppose that I was in a nothing-state, but it feels a lot different to be something and to observe something from afar. 

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