Published on 12, July, 2020
I came here in the hope of finding work and maybe finding a reason to keep on going, but there is nothing here. It's almost as if this place is just some sort of front for the government to say they are actually helping the autistic, when infact, they are just leaving us to die.
I hate the world, I've no desire to keep on living nor do I have a desire to connect with anymore as I just don't like anyone anymore. I keep wanting to get a job, but my lack of confidence, self-esteem and messed up head keeps me from doing so. I can't enjoy any of my hobbies because I keep worrying about work and now that my fit note is over, I'm going to keep getting hassle from DWP to find work while I wait ages for therapy, which probably won't do anything for me anyway. I want to die, but don't have it in me to kill myself and I have no desire to be apart of this heap of *** called modern civilization.
I don't even know what to do anymore.
Thank you all for your support, and I'm sorry I didn't listen to it earlier.
People in this place resonate. We share-feel things differently and the same.
I know for a fact that there are people in this place who are hard wired to help other humans - howsoever they present or appear - if they think they can help (they evidently often can.)
We also understand that none of us like having people in our faces all the time......especially being a bit positive !! Arrrrgh !
We get it.....and we struggle with the balance too - don't wanna stick our noses in where not wanted, but want to help if we can.....coz many of us have been through many things.
Keep rollin Soul
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