Published on 12, July, 2020
I've been struggling lately. Maybe it's because it's cold and dark most days, will I brighten up when the weather does? I've had depression and anxiety for ages. Both cause difficulties in my every day life, nothing serious but a big hassle I could do without.
I've grown increasingly concerned about my mum who is mid fifties and growing increasingly forgetful, forgetting shopping, names and repeating stuff to me she told me earlier on. Bit of a worry. Her mum had Alzheimer's and I'm worried she's going the same way. I'm no longer involved in with the mental health team but I'm increasingly tempted to get in touch so I can get help with the increasing pressure. I'm ok, I'm keeping busy, but it feels like I'm starting to crash and burn and I can't get the worry off my mind. I'm up all night, can't sleep, and my pain from fibromyalgia has increased likely from the anxiety. So I need to see the GP about that, need my medicine altered. I could mention my other worries to her but GP visits aren't my fave place so I try and get in and out within twenty mins.
Hi Bright Eyes,It sounds like things are tough right now, and the fact you're keeping going and reaching out for help shows so much strength. I can hear how much you care about your mum and how concern for her is impacting you. I wish there was something more helpful I could say. My dad has Parkinsons and is showing symptoms of Alzeimers too, so I do resonate with how scary the uncertainty and implications are. You mentioned that you're keeping busy, and I hope the distraction is helping to manage things, and that you're also able to find space for yourself. Have you found things that have helped in the past?
Hope things become more manageable. Take good care