Hi,
I’ve found myself hitting a depression slump quite often lately. I don’t go out of the house, I don’t talk to anyone and the family don’t understand. I don’t expect them to as I don’t fully understand it.
I‘m usually okay for a while, then every now and then I go the opposite way. I can’t get to sleep during the night, then I’m asleep all day. I miss phone calls and messages from the family, then I’m made to feel like shite for not being there at everyone will.
I’ve got absolutely no friends at all, I only have family that I see every now and then. There’s no support groups near me, and I don’t drive so I can access them easily, being on disability and not being able to afford bus fares to go to ones further out.
I’m starting to hit rock bottom again and I’m scared that I’ll end up doing something stupid again, or not getting back up one of these times. I have no idea what else I can do, the doctors are no help as it’s impossible to get an appointment with them, and when I do they don’t listen to my situation and end up either changing my medications or trying to give me ‘self-help’ leafless that don’t help me at all. If I could help myself, I wouldn’t be in the position I’m in.