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Depression Slump

Treevey134777

Hi,

I’ve found myself hitting a depression slump quite often lately. I don’t go out of the house, I don’t talk to anyone and the family don’t understand. I don’t expect them to as I don’t fully understand it. 

I‘m usually okay for a while, then every now and then I go the opposite way. I can’t get to sleep during the night, then I’m asleep all day. I miss phone calls and messages from the family, then I’m made to feel like shite for not being there at everyone will. 

I’ve got absolutely no friends at all, I only have family that I see every now and then. There’s no support groups near me, and I don’t drive so I can access them easily, being on disability and not being able to afford bus fares to go to ones further out. 

I’m starting to hit rock bottom again and I’m scared that I’ll end up doing something stupid again, or not getting back up one of these times. I have no idea what else I can do, the doctors are no help as it’s impossible to get an appointment with them, and when I do they don’t listen to my situation and end up either changing my medications or trying to give me ‘self-help’ leafless that don’t help me at all. If I could help myself, I wouldn’t be in the position I’m in. 

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  • Hi Treevey. Tired as I am, I think I’ll sleep a little better knowing you’ve had one reply to your pouring your heart out here. Not an easy thing to do, especially when feeling low and exhausted. Life can be very hard sometimes and I’m sorry you’re in such a bad place right now. Your situation (being more isolated than many) does sound challenging but I hope communities like this one gI’ve you some comfort. And while wanting friends is understandable, ongoing family contact is not something everyone has so I hope that in your good days you feel blessed by your interactions with them. 

    Maybe being slightly nocturnal is just your natural biorhythm? I know it’s that way for me. The later I can wake up and go to bed the more rested I feel. Don’t feel guilty for being a night owl! But hopefully you can find a way to miss fewer messages from family and get more of a balance going. Sorry this is all a bit inarticulate and useless, I’m very tired and anxious myself for any number of reasons. But maybe just to have someone - anyone- see your words and say ‘I see you, and I see your pain’ is enough for now. And brighter minds will have more practical advice in time! Take care and feel better soon…

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  • Hi Treevey. Tired as I am, I think I’ll sleep a little better knowing you’ve had one reply to your pouring your heart out here. Not an easy thing to do, especially when feeling low and exhausted. Life can be very hard sometimes and I’m sorry you’re in such a bad place right now. Your situation (being more isolated than many) does sound challenging but I hope communities like this one gI’ve you some comfort. And while wanting friends is understandable, ongoing family contact is not something everyone has so I hope that in your good days you feel blessed by your interactions with them. 

    Maybe being slightly nocturnal is just your natural biorhythm? I know it’s that way for me. The later I can wake up and go to bed the more rested I feel. Don’t feel guilty for being a night owl! But hopefully you can find a way to miss fewer messages from family and get more of a balance going. Sorry this is all a bit inarticulate and useless, I’m very tired and anxious myself for any number of reasons. But maybe just to have someone - anyone- see your words and say ‘I see you, and I see your pain’ is enough for now. And brighter minds will have more practical advice in time! Take care and feel better soon…

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  • in reply to Shardovan

    Hi,

    thanks for replying. on my good days, I’m with my mam as I only go shopping when she’s with me. I don’t go anywhere alone. I’ve got a little brother (7) and a little sister (6) who are also autistic. we’re a very close family, along with my other two sisters (26 and 23) and grandparents. But it’s still a battle some days to get them to understand why I shut off and find lack of motivation. You’d think with so many autistics in the family, they’d understand but they seem to have more time and patience with the kids with SEN and think I should be able to just get on with it. I’ve got absolutely no support from professionals or mental health support. CBT I’ve tried a million times and it doesn’t work for me. I don’t understand it and it doesn’t help me. 

    I‘m just at a loss as to what I can do next. Getting a doctor’s appointment is like winning the lottery in my town. They try and push you into reading self help guides, which is great for an autistic/adhd/dyslexic with already diagnosed mental health problems. It doesn’t help me at all and I’m not being told where there’s any more support.