Hi everyone. I'm new to this site. I'm 41 and have just figured out that I am autistic. It's been a life changer for me. However, it's also really making me question if I want to bother with other people and friendships. I've struggled with keeping friends my whole life. There always seems to be a misunderstanding that happens and things end up blowing up. I'm just very tired of going through this over and over.
I have a husband and a couple of friends that I talk to regularly. I still struggle to trust them. Even people I've known for decades, I still find myself not really trusting them. It's hard for me. I just feel that no matter what I do, people always misunderstand.
I'm really just venting more than anything. Have any of you felt like this? At 41, it's just hard to try to relearn how to socialize and be "normal." I just don't have the energy.
