Meltdown Affect Choices?

There's been two times during a meltdown where I've acted less than favourable due to being highly emotional.  These two occasions I harassed people online and became unrecognisable, and not myself.  It was as if I was watching myself perform these actions but couldn't stop myself.  This was when I felt like it was like a month long meltdown.

I often wonder if meltdowns can also turn into a form of psychosis where what you say and do is uncontrollable and you become manic until you snap out of it.

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  • I think that is possible yeh. When I am having a meltdown I have absolutely no control whatsoever over what I say and often very little control over what I do. The other week I punched a hole in the door during a meltdown. 
    I say horrible things to my wife when I have one and its like I can hear what im saying and I know its not what I think or feel but I cant stop myself

    Thankfully she understands my autism and she knows its nothing personal and it doesnt seem to upset her but I feel wracked with guilt  afterwards cos shes so lovely.

    I also worry about breaking things, thankfully I seem to have got a bit more control over that lately but a couple of months ago I broke a remote control and had to pay £20 for a new one. I have smashed my phones several times in the past during a meltdown

  • I tore posters, one Sunday afternoon, after a Premiership result didn't go 'my way'. (It was 1995, and I was 15 turning 16)

    I felt that, ever since childhood, I've dealt with inner-demons. It's the price to pay for intelligence. Throughout school, I sought approval. But, ultimately, I felt like s**t.

    I also learned, from a Family Tree ten years ago, that my line of Patronage had Men who ALWAYS GOT THEIR WAY! Only now am I learning to accept hardship.

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  • I tore posters, one Sunday afternoon, after a Premiership result didn't go 'my way'. (It was 1995, and I was 15 turning 16)

    I felt that, ever since childhood, I've dealt with inner-demons. It's the price to pay for intelligence. Throughout school, I sought approval. But, ultimately, I felt like s**t.

    I also learned, from a Family Tree ten years ago, that my line of Patronage had Men who ALWAYS GOT THEIR WAY! Only now am I learning to accept hardship.

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