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Meltdown Affect Choices?

CatTheWeirdo

There's been two times during a meltdown where I've acted less than favourable due to being highly emotional.  These two occasions I harassed people online and became unrecognisable, and not myself.  It was as if I was watching myself perform these actions but couldn't stop myself.  This was when I felt like it was like a month long meltdown.

I often wonder if meltdowns can also turn into a form of psychosis where what you say and do is uncontrollable and you become manic until you snap out of it.

  • Everyone's melt downs are unique. But month long?  Mine would last more than an hour max before lapsing into shutdown, which could be longer.  Could be some other manifestation of your autism, other than melt down. You need an expert view of that I think.

  • in reply to Billy87

    I tore posters, one Sunday afternoon, after a Premiership result didn't go 'my way'. (It was 1995, and I was 15 turning 16)

    I felt that, ever since childhood, I've dealt with inner-demons. It's the price to pay for intelligence. Throughout school, I sought approval. But, ultimately, I felt like s**t.

    I also learned, from a Family Tree ten years ago, that my line of Patronage had Men who ALWAYS GOT THEIR WAY! Only now am I learning to accept hardship.

  • I think that is possible yeh. When I am having a meltdown I have absolutely no control whatsoever over what I say and often very little control over what I do. The other week I punched a hole in the door during a meltdown. 
    I say horrible things to my wife when I have one and its like I can hear what im saying and I know its not what I think or feel but I cant stop myself

    Thankfully she understands my autism and she knows its nothing personal and it doesnt seem to upset her but I feel wracked with guilt  afterwards cos shes so lovely.

    I also worry about breaking things, thankfully I seem to have got a bit more control over that lately but a couple of months ago I broke a remote control and had to pay £20 for a new one. I have smashed my phones several times in the past during a meltdown