hello!
for the past 2 months i have been doing research on autism in order to self-diagnose (i can't get a formal diagnosis), and i've looked back on moments in my life and my general behaviors/traits and experiences as i realized that they're very likely to be autistic traits and experiences. there's a lot of stuff that perfectly adds up.
i've also noticed some previously absent traits popping up. such as, i now stim by tapping or just moving my feet (previously i did it by just fidgeting with my hands or hugging blankets). i also just feel more free and content with myself - i guess you could say i feel ""more autistic"" now??? i'm not sure how to describe it???? i also feel comfortable with asking for accomodations (like asking people to speak directly) and such. this is probably just bc i finally figured out what was "wrong" with me, but i also wonder if i have masked some of my traits without realizing? i mean it could explain why some of them started popping up after i began researching
this is one hell of a thought process but yknow. i hope at least someone gets what im saying
