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unconscious masking?

brisket

hello!

for the past 2 months i have been doing research on autism in order to self-diagnose (i can't get a formal diagnosis), and i've looked back on moments in my life and my general behaviors/traits and experiences as i realized that they're very likely to be autistic traits and experiences. there's a lot of stuff that perfectly adds up.

i've also noticed some previously absent traits popping up. such as, i now stim by tapping or just moving my feet (previously i did it by just fidgeting with my hands or hugging blankets). i also just feel more free and content with myself - i guess you could say i feel ""more autistic"" now??? i'm not sure how to describe it???? i also feel comfortable with asking for accomodations (like asking people to speak directly) and such. this is probably just bc i finally figured out what was "wrong" with me, but i also wonder if i have masked some of my traits without realizing? i mean it could explain why some of them started popping up after i began researching

this is one hell of a thought process but yknow. i hope at least someone gets what im saying

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  • Hi, I only realised I’m autistic 9 months ago, yes once you start going back in time, you start to realise that you did stim at school. If you realised it was being noticed you stopped and found  a less noticeable one. I find now if a situation is becoming over stimulating without me doing something about it, the chances are it’s only going to get worse. My wife wrote a letter last week for my assessment, it wasn’t until read it that a lot of things,  I thought as normal actually aren’t. I have found that my autism has become more pronounced, I’ve stopped the unconscious masking just a little, if I’m in a situation that’s too much, I now think I can react in my way, it’s okay to do so. I have different needs and I’m not going to suppress them anymore. Good luck with your journey.

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  • Hi, I only realised I’m autistic 9 months ago, yes once you start going back in time, you start to realise that you did stim at school. If you realised it was being noticed you stopped and found  a less noticeable one. I find now if a situation is becoming over stimulating without me doing something about it, the chances are it’s only going to get worse. My wife wrote a letter last week for my assessment, it wasn’t until read it that a lot of things,  I thought as normal actually aren’t. I have found that my autism has become more pronounced, I’ve stopped the unconscious masking just a little, if I’m in a situation that’s too much, I now think I can react in my way, it’s okay to do so. I have different needs and I’m not going to suppress them anymore. Good luck with your journey.

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