How to deal with a bullying parent?

My dad is a bully and I always seem to want him dead. He makes me very angry and he still likes to bully me. Anyone who does bully me makes me angry and I wish them hell. I bully my dad right back and my mom thinks I’m the one who starts it, but it’s not  me. I hope when he dies he’s in hell and that I don’t have to deal with him anymore. I’m not even going to his funeral. That’s how I feel about bullies. They deserve to be miserable. 

Parents
  • They say the best way is to stand up to the bully but of doesn't sound like that's going to work for you. 

    I agree with Mariusz, cut ties and leave to a better place where you don't have to suffer this every day. You shouldn't have to live like this. You deserve to be happy. 

Reply
  • They say the best way is to stand up to the bully but of doesn't sound like that's going to work for you. 

    I agree with Mariusz, cut ties and leave to a better place where you don't have to suffer this every day. You shouldn't have to live like this. You deserve to be happy. 

Children
  • stand up to the bully

    it's a myth. I did when I was 15y.o. I broke a broom on his head. He was lying on a floor, completely drunk and laughing in my face. I felt like my soul got dirty after it, I was terryfied i'll be like him if I continue that path. So what I did not get beaten on daily basis anymore if it meant that my mom and sisters did get more of it.

    Question is: Are you bothered if you'll turn into bully yourself or no? Have you got younger sibilings and there is nobody else but you between them and a bully?