Mental Problems

Sorry for your loss, that is bound to affect you by itself - if you haven't already then read about grief and find support for that as more appropriate then just mental health services that are more about crisis than long-term issues.  They can be overwhelmed  too, important to accept that, and also they aren't autism health services as the NHS doesn't offer that, so really reaching out to other autistic people is more appropriate for issues related to your autism and much more likely to be understood, even if not able to offer any solutions. There are autistic peer support/mentors if it helps offline as its private/difficult.   

Depression can make it hard to enjoy things, but try and do them anyway without thinking about things, as for now its more important to have a break from thinking/feeling low than trying to enjoy thing or feel good which you can work towards but will take time.

The best advice for anxiety is to face it, but just going out without learning to manage thoughts and anxiety may not work or make things worse, overwhelmed.  Learning to manage anxiety better first will help, but also learning to self-mentor yourself before/during/after - if you tell yourself you can cope with going out, cope whilst out, then that reduces anxiety and you also let your brain know you are in control more, and that will calm it and it will feed you less worrying things and more useful things.  Also, go out and choose what you think about, think about what you want to do, buy, etc., Its also important to get back and not analyse what happened, only focus on what you might need to do better, things that might help us next time.

Meltdowns/shutdowns are responses to too much anxiety and stresses, so reducing those will make them less likely, and also try not to think 'i can't cope' and use 'this is difficult right now, but i am coping as best I can I and want to cope better '.

I doubt your mum would want you to suffer like this, so work on things for her as well as yourself. 

Sorry for your loss, that is bound to affect you by itself - if you haven't already then read about grief and find support for that as more appropriate then just mental health services that are more about crisis than long-term issues.  They can be overwhelmed  too, important to accept that, and also they aren't autism health services as the NHS doesn't offer that, so really reaching out to other autistic people is more appropriate for issues related to your autism and much more likely to be understood, even if not able to offer any solutions. There are autistic peer support/mentors if it helps offline as its private/difficult.   

Depression can make it hard to enjoy things, but try and do them anyway without thinking about things, as for now its more important to have a break from thinking/feeling low than trying to enjoy thing or feel good which you can work towards but will take time.

The best advice for anxiety is to face it, but just going out without learning to manage thoughts and anxiety may not work or make things worse, overwhelmed.  Learning to manage anxiety better first will help, but also learning to self-mentor yourself before/during/after - if you tell yourself you can cope with going out, cope whilst out, then that reduces anxiety and you also let your brain know you are in control more, and that will calm it and it will feed you less worrying things and more useful things.  Also, go out and choose what you think about, think about what you want to do, buy, etc., Its also important to get back and not analyse what happened, only focus on what you might need to do better, things that might help us next time.

Meltdowns/shutdowns are responses to too much anxiety and stresses, so reducing those will make them less likely, and also try not to think 'i can't cope' and use 'this is difficult right now, but i am coping as best I can I and want to cope better '.

I doubt your mum would want you to suffer like this, so work on things for her as well as yourself. 

Hello. Thank you for your reply. I never coped well with death, lost my step dad who I wasn't especially close with but it still affected me on a huge scale and took a long time to get over. I knew it would be worse when mum died and it has been I've never felt so bad as I do at the moment. It's the change, the increase in pressure, just everything has gone crazy and I feel horrible. My GP has put me on a list for grief counseling and support but I think there's a waiting list so I don't know when I'll get this. Yesterday though I did read about Cruse online which is a bereavement support so I did use that and found it helped me feel better.

I used to creative writing so I might try and start again but last time I tried I couldn't write anything my mind was blank but maybe it'll be different next time.

Thank you for your tips and advice for the anxiety. I will defos try this in future. I was sitting in my garden just to get some air and get some peace but the heat has kept me inside this week. Anxiety is a big problem for me I've had it since school which isn't that long ago I guess but since it's come it's never gone again like an unwanted guest I can't get rid off. But thanks I'll try your tips and that may help me out.

Thanks I will try to do this for mum most of all xx