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I am so afraid of myself, I need help ASAP!!!

NAS73676

This is the first time I was in a general and mental hospital, they gave me different medications, and I stopped having dark, twisted fantasies, delusional beliefs, and hallucinations. I feel so good.

I had narcissistic delusions that my former bullies were going after me and that I had to kill them, to put a stop to it, and I had command hallucinations telling me to kill them.

I am scared that I might have an extremely severe personality disorder, with PTSD features. I need someone to talk to. Please help me, I am afraid of it!

  • in reply to NAS73676

    Sorry your are experiencing things like that, the best way forward is to talk to expert and engage here.

    Are you a really anxious person? That can cause disturbances, not just past trauma.  Important thing is not worry about it, or feel bad about it, and focus on other things when it happens, don't feel you have to go along with it.  Best to speak to an expert, to discuss it all and if any diagnosis needs to be made, but may just be a psychosis and temporary, or medication helps you cope better and it fades that away .

  • in reply to Dawn

    I agree. I will have therapy next week. And my parents are also looking for a psychologist and psychiatrist, so I can talk to as well.

  • I'm sorry you are going through this. Imagining some one is after you, who has actually harmed you in the past, sounds like a trauma response to me and doesn't sound very narcissistic either. The delusions do sound a bit psychotic though. 

    None of us, of course is qualified to make any sort of diagnosis and I am sure there may be more to your situation. Did they not give you a proper diagnosis? Personally, I'd go back to the services and ask for one. You don't want to be sitting there worried about personality disorders if what you have is a temporary trauma induced psychosis that won't last forever, but your service are the right people to ask whether that is the case.

    Good luck

  • I'm sorry you're experiencing this it sounds very scary for you. 

    If the meds in hospital helped could you talk to your doc and see if they can give you some meds that will get rid of these horrible thoughts?

    It's good that you feel about to talk and be open. Venting is good so always vent out when you need to.

    Your always welcome to talk to me anytime you need to x