My depression and serious anger management issues

Hi, really sorry to hear you were bullied in the past, it is a horrible thing. I think that you need to get support as soon as possible, to try and stay safe, and then manage these issues. That probably starts with a doctor, but there may be other support available locally to you.

go to the doctor, they might be able to give you something to switch it off. like valium or xanax. 

I have dark thoughts, depression and I feel deranged and want to kill myself and my former bullies, I just want to got to mental hospital. I can't take it anymore. I am sorry!

I emphasize,. I was severely bullied at school and beaten and bullied at home during my early years.  It was a no win situation.

Thanks!

i know exactly how you feel, but for me its people i have to work with. being honest with my employer got me suspended. i think they are waiting for me to act outside of work so they can call me the psycho they all wish i was. 

dont act on it. take yourself away where you wont be reminded of it or them. i only ruminate and get worked up about it when i actually see the people out and about now (which i try to avoid).  

its tough, and people dont appreciate that you cant just brush it off and that you ruminate on it until its unhealthy. good luck and take care.