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what’s wrong with me

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I know phrasing it like that isn’t healthy, but it’s how I feel. I feel like I’m always on edge 24/7. I’m always thinking that people are looking at me when they’re not, or that someone hates me or look at me like I’m not worth much. Here’s the thing, I know that’s not the case, I’m not trying to beat myself down, it’s that my brain won’t let go of those thoughts. I used to think when I was younger that I had a severe learning disability and the only reason people hung out with me was because they felt bad and not because they actually wanted to be my friend. I had a paranoid delusion where I thought one of my neighbors that invited me and my family over for dinner poisoned our food and that we would die. It was beef stroganoff, I refused to eat it because of that thought. I know I’m ranting but I really wanna know what’s wrong with me. For context the most effective drug I’ve taken is for sleep and it’s Seroquel. It’s the one I see the most effects from

  • Imagine you're shrink/engineering looking on your own mind from outside, disassemble it into smaller parts, until you identify all of its parts, 

    doing something, including thinking happens for a reason, except usually it's not one reason but sum of them.

    it might be once you know all of them, you'll be able to remove one, that you don't want, and your thinking will be going different way from then on on its own

  • go to doc. i thought i had borderline personality disorder because i have 5 of the traits in the DSM. doc pointed out that i also have lots of senetivities, stimming, routines, special interests etc. now im officially ASD. 

    you cant fix something if you dont know/cant go about addressing the problem because you dont know what the problem is. 

  • This world can be a difficult and confusing place and I think it is easy to develop unhelpful thoughts as a consequence of being continually exposed to situations that are hard to make sense of and always wondering what will happen next. I just wanted to say that I too am on edge 24/7. The only time I can relax (sometimes) is if I can get somewhere where no one can see me or reach me. It is hard to feel comfortable around people. 

    When we get stuck thinking unhelpful thoughts, I do believe that we can find a way to change this and use our brains in a better way. The first step is recognising that the story that your brain is telling you is not true and you can already do this, so that is good.  I have heard that even if you cannot force your brain to let go of those thoughts, you can choose how you respond to them, you can choose  to ignore them or maybe you can create new ones instead. It is all about where you place your attention and what you give your energy to. I think that if we do not have something positive to intentionally focus on and occupy our brains, then we have too much energy left over and then our brain uses this energy to develop unhelpful thoughts. Then these unhelpful thoughts distract us and we start to give our energy to them more and more and we can get stuck like this.

    Maybe try to find something that you enjoy doing and try to spend more time focusing on that. Then, if you are happy doing that it doesn't matter how other people look at you or what you think about what they might be thinking. This is what I am trying to do for myself at the moment. At the moment I feel completely worthless and I hope that this will improve if I can focus on doing something 'good'. I hope it helps you too.

  • Possibly something did put you on edge and ypu haven't identified what

  • I would say it's perfectly normal, we invent all kinds of future possible scenarios, we usually start with those doomsday, and we might get stuck if we think it is sth wrong with us instead of exploring all possible scenarios. In difficult situations it takes me all night to reach positive solutions