i really don't see it, regardless of being put down constantly throughout my life, by those i share genetics and nothing else with too.
i see other peoples posts, messages, anything, and so many times people just seem to think better than i do, and i just feel kind of incapable of doing anything else than surviving day by day.
then theres people who seem to think my "heads screwed on" it really isnt, though its usually been people with addiction problems that have said that, so never worth believing anyway.
ah i don't know, currently ill with potential covid, so been stuck in this hostel type place all week, can come out of isolation and back to work friday if i feel ok to.
went out earlier because im going nuts here, and did me some good mentally, did what i could to keep away from people, wore mask etc, but people didnt keep distance from me, so, i dunno, did my best not to spread anything, not that any other person bothers to.