Question if is normal as my brain is more developed that I know right from wrong, even when I am sometimes delusional

Is it normal that as an adult that I still know right from wrong, even when I am psychotic? It's just my brain is much more developed, I did not know right from wrong when I was delusional at the 15, and even as an adult, I sometimes am delusional.

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  • These are very concrete words: Psychotic, Delusional, Judging right form wrong. I think in order to help, it would be good if you want to elaborate.

    Have you been diagnosed with Schizophrenia or have you simply been called delusional by peers in an argument? I ask because blame shifting or name calling or gaslighting, any way of trying to shut down or nullify another can be a default mode non-autistics play when they experience shame or the possibility of being 'found out'.

    If this isn't in relation with others, there are varying stages of psychosis, which involve the ability to judge what is real from what is something we might imagine while dreaming. Like seeing a shadow move that might not be there. 

    When dreaming, I still know the difference between right and wrong. Often these aren't needed, though as It can be like going to an art gallery where being present in the moment isn't a judgement call but an aesthetic experience. 

    Almost all humans know the difference. Most believe what they are doing is right, even if it's planting a bomb. This ability to slip into a mode of entitlement or justification is part of self-preservation. Most baddies believe they are on the Right side of justice for whatever reason. Checking in with our our own humanity and weaknesses, opting for gradate can help with humility, which is the rebalancing mechanism between Right and Wrong. These can be skewed by what we believe to be real or true. 

  • Why did you ask me that? I sometimes do suffer from psychosis, and that is explained by Bipolar Disorder. Although, I sometimes wrongly get called delusional, due to my intelligence based on my special interests.

  • I sometimes wrongly get called delusional, due to my intelligence

    This is why I asked. Delusional is a phrase NTypicals might use in accusation. Either to shift blame or due to panicking or as a way to dismiss, dominate and shut down a thing for whatever reason (boredom, even). 

    But more importantly Bipolar is becoming a dated term. Many women who were misdiagnosed with Melancholia or Bipolar were/are actually autistic. 

    We can take in far more of our surroundings / information mentally than our non-autistic peers. It can slow us down as it's a lot to sift though and it can cloud judgement creating the perspectives which might create and intense impact emotionally. Many of us encounter the same traumatic events without the 'guide to life' book to do things in a way that creates good boundaries and helps us remove our selves from toxic or cruel situations. Life can feel incredibly unjust, because it IS. It's more than a feeling, it has a genuine hard impact and more impact fully experience by the Autist. We are wired such that we can't filter things out like NTypicals and that creates a genuine overload and stress. We might go from perfectly fine to a rage from a day of being forced or trapped by a million small unjust things and then one last thing and boom. 

    I started a dive into psychology, philosophy and such in my teens determined to get to the bottom of things. Obviously, nothing is simple. But the world IS chaotic, the economic systems cruel, the politics shrouded in an alien form of communication. Our goal as Erich Fromm and Deleuze both expressed in one way or another is to Stop the madness from becoming Mental Illness. 

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  • I sometimes wrongly get called delusional, due to my intelligence

    This is why I asked. Delusional is a phrase NTypicals might use in accusation. Either to shift blame or due to panicking or as a way to dismiss, dominate and shut down a thing for whatever reason (boredom, even). 

    But more importantly Bipolar is becoming a dated term. Many women who were misdiagnosed with Melancholia or Bipolar were/are actually autistic. 

    We can take in far more of our surroundings / information mentally than our non-autistic peers. It can slow us down as it's a lot to sift though and it can cloud judgement creating the perspectives which might create and intense impact emotionally. Many of us encounter the same traumatic events without the 'guide to life' book to do things in a way that creates good boundaries and helps us remove our selves from toxic or cruel situations. Life can feel incredibly unjust, because it IS. It's more than a feeling, it has a genuine hard impact and more impact fully experience by the Autist. We are wired such that we can't filter things out like NTypicals and that creates a genuine overload and stress. We might go from perfectly fine to a rage from a day of being forced or trapped by a million small unjust things and then one last thing and boom. 

    I started a dive into psychology, philosophy and such in my teens determined to get to the bottom of things. Obviously, nothing is simple. But the world IS chaotic, the economic systems cruel, the politics shrouded in an alien form of communication. Our goal as Erich Fromm and Deleuze both expressed in one way or another is to Stop the madness from becoming Mental Illness. 

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