I feel kind of lost. I have some really bad bouts with mental illness (depression, anxiety) and I feel like its pushing away my best friend. It happens less now, but I always feel bad when it does.
We were at a party yesterday and part way through I feel the tell tail sign of depression and anxiety seep in. I excuse myself to my car when they are not around to hopefully recover before they notice. But they found me and realized what was wrong. We stayed for a little longer but decided to leave earlier than originally planned. I feel like it was because of me, and I feel like *** because of it.
I was DD that night and when driving home it was getting worse. They could tell I was not doing well and said that I could just drop them at home instead of what we planned.
I feel bad that I ruined the night and now I am afraid they don't want anything to do with me. That they are mad at me.
I don't know what to do and I am afraid to text them
