I was good for 2 years, but somehow obsessions and *** from the past came to my mind again and I can't control it, or maybe I don't want to control it, I don't know what to do.
I've been four days with anxiety and pain, don't know how to solve it. I thought I wouldn't go back to this ***.
If anyone wants to, feel free to tell your experiences in the comments.
I feel a similar way - had a really awful couple of months with lots of changes and lost friendship and it hits hard! Like every bad thing that happens causes me insomnia and flapping and constantly wake up at 3am to worry racing thoughts. Writing things down and trying to think of perspectives and solutions helping and walking is an absolute life saver nothing like fresh air to calm racing thoughts and if it's in a green area/near water it just lifts me. That and listening to the music duo 'First Aid Kit' I hope you feel better soon and sending you a virtual hug 
