God it's so lonely when you're autistic. No-one ever understands. I'm sobbing because the person I thought was my best friend made plans with other people for their bday. And I know they can have other friends but it stings because they're the only person I consider a friend. I'm so terrible at making friends and I'm so hurt that I wasn't invited to their bday. I'm so lonely all the time. I just want friends and nobody understands that I just physically find it impossible to engage with new people which leaves me stuck in the loop of having nobody anymore now I've left school. I'm at uni and because I commute from home I haven't made a single friend there yet either. I'm only posting this to vent really. Because I don't see how anyone can give me helpful advice when I've felt this most of my life. Just so alienated from everyone. It hurts.
