Guilt and work

From my personal experience I have been through some tough times with finding a job as an autistic person. It does lead to some level of embarrassment and fear and anxiety/guilt all these negative feelings which I have felt. Sadly you might just have to accept and let go I know it's hard but you can only try. It's really unpleasant feeling and reading this It feels like most people can understand me and sense the pain or deep feeling. 

I have at times had people constantly repeating themselves saying to me "get a job" or just I feel like at times going round in circles which is really hard. What helps me to stop these awful feelings is having a good friend to speak to and integrate with that will help your situation in most levels.

Has anyone has this experience before but have you gone through some level of arrogance with other people acting like their better than you because they are working and that they have a job. It's a really hard feeling to deal with this and dampens your self esteem only if you allow it to happen.

I can only apologise about what your going through, it totally feels real and normal but also horrible one of the worst things I have been called weird in the past and constantly patronised about now having a job. It leaved me feeling sad and paranoid and every night my head when it hits that pillow I can't fall asleep I am thinking why can't I do this normal one thing?

hope this helps and if anyone can relate please reply.

From my personal experience I have been through some tough times with finding a job as an autistic person. It does lead to some level of embarrassment and fear and anxiety/guilt all these negative feelings which I have felt. Sadly you might just have to accept and let go I know it's hard but you can only try. It's really unpleasant feeling and reading this It feels like most people can understand me and sense the pain or deep feeling. 

I have at times had people constantly repeating themselves saying to me "get a job" or just I feel like at times going round in circles which is really hard. What helps me to stop these awful feelings is having a good friend to speak to and integrate with that will help your situation in most levels.

Has anyone has this experience before but have you gone through some level of arrogance with other people acting like their better than you because they are working and that they have a job. It's a really hard feeling to deal with this and dampens your self esteem only if you allow it to happen.

I can only apologise about what your going through, it totally feels real and normal but also horrible one of the worst things I have been called weird in the past and constantly patronised about now having a job. It leaved me feeling sad and paranoid and every night my head when it hits that pillow I can't fall asleep I am thinking why can't I do this normal one thing?

hope this helps and if anyone can relate please reply.

I’m sorry you’ve been made to feel that way Jay. No one should be judged in that way. You have value as a person whether you have a job or not. 
if it’s any comfort lots of people with successful careers are completely AWFUL people (look at the Prime Minister!). Many ‘high flyers’ are stressed and unhappy. 

my view is that you can do worthwhile things without having a paid job. Eg you can learn to cook great meals, or read good books and learn so many things, or learn to draw and paint, or get really fit by exercising a lot. These are all things that we can feel good about. They are achievements in the same way a job is. Just being a good, kind person is also something to be really proud of. 

I can really relate. I used to have so called friends constantly criticise me for not working, making me feel lazy and saying that their hard earned money was going on "people like me" who were on benefits. It was very hurtful

I feel like there is nothing in me at all but this...how to even begin to explain to anyone how youve avoided for 20 years...it feels like the worst feeling in the world.

Its the not wanting that hurts...like why should i get away with it. It feels like im fighting the world to have it my way...its made me feel i cant be me anymore in case someone says im fine