I’ve always been a very insular person, I like to do things on my own which means that the majority of my time is spent alone.. it’s just that I have such overwhelming feelings of loneliness. I know that autistic people can have relationships, but I just feel that it’s not going to happen for me. I find it very hard to even talk to the opposite sex, so I’ve found that online ‘friendships’ are the only way I can feel a real connection with someone.
After a very intense and unhealthy online ‘friendship’ ended nearly two years ago, I still look back and get upset over how things ended and the fact that I just feel like I have no-one. Is this a typical autism thing? I feel that I just can’t let it go, whether that’s because I miss the person, or just the connection we had, and the fact that I felt wanted and that I had someone I could turn to… these days I feel like I have no-one and it’s so lonely. I sit here and think that day to day, I want to be alone, but I also don’t… I don’t know if that even makes sense.
I’m not really sure where this post is going, I’m just hoping that maybe I’m not alone?
