Hi
My whole life I have been an introvert with only like 3 close friends. Once I reached high school, I tried to be more open and actually try and talk to people: I got along with, about 5 classmates with whom I spent my first year in there hanging out and stuff like that, we were something like the "popular kids". That changed a few months ago, where there was a sort of beef going on (between me and the other classmates), where we stopped talking and I am pretty sure they don't like me anymore. I only talk to like 1 classmate now and don't feel like it's going to change anytime soon. Also to mention, I go to a really hard high school, where the teachers put a big amount of pressure on me, and my grades are not as good as they used to be in middle school.
Now, 2 of my close friends are mostly hanging out with other people and the third one, who has been the closest one, and a really good friend of mine my entire life is moving away to another country. Also, I dont see as much support from my parents as I should. They are not bad parents, but I barely talk to them by now. The only thing they are non-stop telling me is that I should be studying more so I won't fail school, because that's the only important thing to them.
My life is just so repetitive now it's getting exhausting. All I do now when I get home from school is sleep, watch youtube and browse the internet. I don't have any hobby to keep me entertained. Recently, I have been hitting the gym, but grew tired of it after about a month. Also, I have been playing computer games my whole life, but I dont find any enjoyable for the past 3 months or so.
To be honest, I have been having not so warming thoughts for about a year now, and I am seeking any advice on how to keep going.
