I'm really struggling with bad thoughts at the moment I think it's because I'm not feeling well and the anxiety and autism in one making it so overwhelming. I don't want to hurt myself but at the same time I do and have this urge it's really hard to ignore. Not sure what else I can do about it. I don't want to tell mum she would worry and I can't call doctor until tomorrow. Any distraction or advice would be really useful right now.