Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi
It's been a long time since I could easily cry, life got harder and really messed up, and I've been through allot. So many things that hurt so much I wish I could cry and I can't even. I don't really know what to do and I feel like I'm going to just snap one day. My mental health is pretty poor but I still do whatever I can to survive and try to succeed. Nomatter what, something big or fucked up happens that sets me back. Id visit a hospital but can't afford to miss work, I really need help and it feels like I'll never get it. This isn't a cry for help I just really badly need to let this out. I'm getting sick of constant suffering
It's been about 44 years since i last cried. I don't remember why I stopped, but for some reason i did. Same with general emotion, I cut it off and embraced something more akin to Mr Spock level emotions. But you can't hold everything in, indefinitely. I have venting processes that allow me time to release emotions at a time that is better for me. But crying, I have tried to do over the years and I think that one is likely gone for good.