Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi
It's been a long time since I could easily cry, life got harder and really messed up, and I've been through allot. So many things that hurt so much I wish I could cry and I can't even. I don't really know what to do and I feel like I'm going to just snap one day. My mental health is pretty poor but I still do whatever I can to survive and try to succeed. Nomatter what, something big or fucked up happens that sets me back. Id visit a hospital but can't afford to miss work, I really need help and it feels like I'll never get it. This isn't a cry for help I just really badly need to let this out. I'm getting sick of constant suffering
I'm assuming this is an autistic thing reading everyone's experiences with it.
It's something I've had all my life so far. I feel sad, sometimes insanely sad and feel as if I need to have a long hard cry. But it never comes - no tears, just overwhelming sadness that I can't get rid of it. I've had this all my life and today, after attempting to make small talk and failing miserably because of my anxiety and difficulty with speaking I feel sad and like I want to cry but I'm frustrated because I can't cry.
Sometimes I feel like a robot. I wish I had better understanding and control of my emotions.