Am I overthinking everything or should I seek help?

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I've been thinking lately of seeking some help from professionals but I'm in this strange situation where I find my self doubting my own problems. Almost like having imposter syndrome I think. The feeling I get when I think about how a doctor would dismiss my feelings or how my family wouldn't accept the fact that I may need mental help is like an immovable object in my stomach.

My memory is hazy at best and many of my days I have brain fog, makes thinking about anything so hard, I genuinely just feel like I'm getting dumber every passing day and it's been like this for a long time... I can't even remember the last time I wasn't like this.

I've been overeating because it's one of the only thing that makes me feel good for a little while even though it makes me feel like *** afterwards, been chronically biting my nails and skin around them until they bleed.

Even playing video games isn't fun anymore for the most part, it's just a distraction and it doesn't distract me well enough most of the time even though I keep coming back to the games.

I've been diagnosed with ADHD when I was in elementary school but since then have had my hyperactivity subside by almost 100% either because it's a misdiagnosis or because I was about to get kicked out of school and was tired of having all my privileges taken away at home and being screamed at at any opportunity as punishment.

Anyways, I'm not looking for a diagnosis here, I just need some guidance on what I should do and want to hear your opinions/similar stories if you have any. After writing all that above I feel as though going to a professional is a good idea but I always end up thinking that I overblew my issues and that it's not that bad, I should just man up, yet it always ends up with me being in a rut somehow getting back up.

Sometimes I wish I could just have some kind of accident just to get a break from everything.

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  • I deal with a very similar issue. The one thing that seems to help me is to write it down. At the end of the day, before going to bed, I write in my diary all the things that have been on my mind and have been bothering me.

    I think there is plenty of evidence for the therapeutic effects of writing, even when it's just for yourself and even if you aren't going to read it again after writing it. When you write something down, your mind is "Tricked" to some degree. I thinks "oh.. it's on paper now. It's been documented. It's written down. I no longer need to think about this issue. If I need to think more, I can write more down."

    This has been my experience and I hope it helps you as well. Whenever I write something down, I am able to work through the issue and no longer think about it as often or at all. Whenever your mind is fixated on something, it wants you to slow down and analyze it and work through it. One reliable way of doing that is to write it out. Another route (if it's available) is to talk to a friend or therapist about it. That can help a lot as well.

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  • I deal with a very similar issue. The one thing that seems to help me is to write it down. At the end of the day, before going to bed, I write in my diary all the things that have been on my mind and have been bothering me.

    I think there is plenty of evidence for the therapeutic effects of writing, even when it's just for yourself and even if you aren't going to read it again after writing it. When you write something down, your mind is "Tricked" to some degree. I thinks "oh.. it's on paper now. It's been documented. It's written down. I no longer need to think about this issue. If I need to think more, I can write more down."

    This has been my experience and I hope it helps you as well. Whenever I write something down, I am able to work through the issue and no longer think about it as often or at all. Whenever your mind is fixated on something, it wants you to slow down and analyze it and work through it. One reliable way of doing that is to write it out. Another route (if it's available) is to talk to a friend or therapist about it. That can help a lot as well.

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