<-10> <+10> How Do You Feel Right Now?

so sorry for your loss 

-8 at the moment... I'm usually more optimistic, but my girlfriend recently passed away in her sleep of a stroke, and every time her name gets mentioned it's as if someone has trodden on part of my soul and stamped their feet.. like all the colour just drained out of the world.

I'm going to start receiving counseling soon, and I'm also trying to help organise her funeral, which is helping me work things out of my head.

I guess my recent diagnosis is the most stable foundation that I can use to build upon, moving forward. I don't always understand my overall mood, but I know by now that the only way is up... Despite how cruel life is being to me at the moment.

Today, my score has dipped... to somewhere around -5, which I know is linked, at least in part, to the weather/climate. My thermometer hasn't risen beyond 17 C for more than a week.

I do not function well in winter. The only sensible thing to do in the winter months is to cancel (and reschedule) everything that requires going outside. Mid-October, I usually enter a state of hibernation, only resurfacing in the Spring.  

The urge to stay in bed until at least noon, and to get back into bed around 4pm is overwhelming. The one positive note is that drinking hot chocolate becomes an essential activity!

still 7 

did not decline, that is a relief

good there are kind people in this world still

just had a life changing experience --- i am so lucky to be still alive. someone just granted me a miracle and i am so thankful. I wasnt afraid to die but i just cant believe my luck !

Wow. As the famous line goes: "I'll have what she's having."

10

Happy Birthday!

I empathise with you, Martin. I've had similar jobs done in the last few weeks. Some horrific experiences with outside tradespeople (landscapers) but very positive ones with interior tradespeople. Even so, it's always a stressful time having strangers in and around the house.

I'm around the same, Ladybird.

Somewhere between minus 5 and plus 5. I tend to be bipolar by nature. 

Happy Birthday

My last birthday I spent at work, still in a previous workplace, they declined my request for holiday on my birthday. But It is over at last, and I am over it as well at last. :)

Know the feeling - my last birthday was miserable.

What's your version of what it should be like?

3.  It’s my birthday today and I feel self pity because I don’t know how to make it more like it should be 

About a 0. We had new flooring laid in the kitchen today, which was a anxiety inducing, as I was the only one home. I am now over that, but the faff of moving back ino place and re-plumbing the white-goods is still hanging over me. 

I would say 0

+7
There are words to write and jobs to attend to. These activities help me to stay active and the jobs provide a sense of well being.

-3 with a crushing sense of impending doom.

Update: now feeling +1 thanks to news of Babylon 5 reboot.

Sorry to hear that, Robert