Hey, Auti-nauts. I've not posted for a while. I can't remember if I've ever started a thread on here. Please be gentle! I wanted to ask you all a serious question. Does anyone else gets mentally exhausted interacting with other people?
Hey, Auti-nauts. I've not posted for a while. I can't remember if I've ever started a thread on here. Please be gentle! I wanted to ask you all a serious question. Does anyone else gets mentally exhausted interacting with other people?
It would explain why I’ve had a weekend at a convention and I feel wiped-out, destroyed, demoralised negative, self-piteous, self-destructive etc. Strangely enough it seems to be the price for overdoing what I enjoy: I needed and liked meeting people. I feel like I’m not ‘made for this world’. But I must be, right? I’m ‘made in this world’ thus I must also be ‘made for this world’. I guess I have been sickened by over-socialising and I have the hangover.
I think this emotional and spiritual terror will pass, as all things do. In the meantime I am frightened by what I feel and have an urge to vanquish or destroy the feelings.
I need to learn from this experience.
This forum is a good University of Autism.
it has occurred to me - after reading comments - that I might have been ‘masking’ by constantly dominating conversations. When silent in groups I felt like I didn’t matter or exist and that I was being judged negatively
It would explain why I’ve had a weekend at a convention and I feel wiped-out, destroyed, demoralised negative, self-piteous, self-destructive etc. Strangely enough it seems to be the price for overdoing what I enjoy: I needed and liked meeting people. I feel like I’m not ‘made for this world’. But I must be, right? I’m ‘made in this world’ thus I must also be ‘made for this world’. I guess I have been sickened by over-socialising and I have the hangover.
I think this emotional and spiritual terror will pass, as all things do. In the meantime I am frightened by what I feel and have an urge to vanquish or destroy the feelings.
I need to learn from this experience.
This forum is a good University of Autism.
it has occurred to me - after reading comments - that I might have been ‘masking’ by constantly dominating conversations. When silent in groups I felt like I didn’t matter or exist and that I was being judged negatively