Published on 12, July, 2020
Not sure how to start this, i am not very good with words, but I will try.
I have always felt different from everyone else, and had a protective bubble in which I lived. My world was magical, whilst outside it was scary. People scared me. They still do.
I found it safer to live in this Dreamworld, and would avoid people as best I could.
My school days were a mess, because I would only do what I wanted to do. I was bullied by other children because I was strange(they're words not mine). I still get problems with
people taking advantage of me because I cannot say no. I have been diagnosed with OCD, and traits of a personality disorder in the past. But I still feels there is more to it. Now i have undergone part one of my assessment for Autism, and am awaiting next part. My sister has Autism, it was felt I could too.
I just feel there is more to me, why i am the way i am. I'm not a great socialiser, preferring my own company. I feel crowded around other people. It's too noisy, too much going on.
Anyway, here i am. Sorry for the grammar, not good with words as I said, but I try.
It sounds as if you might be on the autistic spectrum, Blues, and you have done the right thing in getting an assessment.
To understand yourself is a great advantage because knowing what 'makes you 'tick' means you are in a better position to manage yourself in the future. It also frees you from any guilt you might otherwise feel in not seeming to 'fit in' with other people.
Anyway, please keep us updated on your progress.
Thank you, it looks a nice friendly place.
Blues said:Will do lostmyway.I guess I've always known there was something there, just wasn't sure what exactly. I always saw things in a different sort of way to other kids. I behaved, to coin they're phrase weired.People can be so cruel.
Will do lostmyway.
I guess I've always known there was something there, just wasn't sure what exactly. I always saw things in a different sort of way to other kids. I behaved, to coin they're phrase weired.
People can be so cruel.
Well, you won't find anyone being cruel to you here, Blues.