Hi Everyone, Undiagnosed Mid 30s Male.

^ awesome reply thanks for that info and taking the time to write it!

I think i should offer to go private as a gesture first thing i say next time i go to GP to not pressure the GP/NHS budget - is that a good strategy, should i say it like that or will i insult the GP? 

I have social anxiety when i attempt to socialize with almost all people because i cant judge things i think. However i have worked a way to work/live and have a relationship by just forgetting about any wider socializing completely.  I told the GP this.

Thing is i have found a way to make a living online for years so i dont need NHS care as such. Maybe in future its possible.

I feel i want the validation of the diagnosis because some family members likely wont accept my diagnosis and i might want to interact with them.

Based on the above i should just go private i think...... if anything at all. I am thinking about not bothering, im 50/50 right now.  Trying to work out how autistic i am and to me its borderline/high functioning.... but im so terrible with social intuitive data, its always been a mystery now i think back, i just ask my partners judgement on any social etiquette these days.  I try to avoid everything social i can though, it just easier and im neither depressed or happy. Just middle of the road.

If its business or short interactions with strangers for first time i can usually perform much better because the social data is less (i still perform badly at times though.) Anyone else like that?

Im partly curious to know if i am autistic but there is also a need if i want to have better interactions.  Maybe i dont need better interactions though, perhaps its a complication, i dont know. I should imagine old age might be hard at this current pace but then old age is hard for everyone.

^ awesome reply thanks for that info and taking the time to write it!

I think i should offer to go private as a gesture first thing i say next time i go to GP to not pressure the GP/NHS budget - is that a good strategy, should i say it like that or will i insult the GP? 

I have social anxiety when i attempt to socialize with almost all people because i cant judge things i think. However i have worked a way to work/live and have a relationship by just forgetting about any wider socializing completely.  I told the GP this.

Thing is i have found a way to make a living online for years so i dont need NHS care as such. Maybe in future its possible.

I feel i want the validation of the diagnosis because some family members likely wont accept my diagnosis and i might want to interact with them.

Based on the above i should just go private i think...... if anything at all. I am thinking about not bothering, im 50/50 right now.  Trying to work out how autistic i am and to me its borderline/high functioning.... but im so terrible with social intuitive data, its always been a mystery now i think back, i just ask my partners judgement on any social etiquette these days.  I try to avoid everything social i can though, it just easier and im neither depressed or happy. Just middle of the road.

If its business or short interactions with strangers for first time i can usually perform much better because the social data is less (i still perform badly at times though.) Anyone else like that?

Im partly curious to know if i am autistic but there is also a need if i want to have better interactions.  Maybe i dont need better interactions though, perhaps its a complication, i dont know. I should imagine old age might be hard at this current pace but then old age is hard for everyone.