Published on 12, July, 2020
He seemed quite keen to point out that having a "label" won't change anything, but ironically told me he believes my issues are due to Anxiety Disorder.
I don't really know what happens now, I forgot to ask. My anxiety levels are through the roof because a) my train was late and I was worried I'd have to have a confrontation with the surgery staff about being late, and b) I was worried about having to explain all this to a complete stranger.
I wrote a list, the GP read it and asked if I can function normally at home, so I said I can wash myself, cook food and do normal every day things. He seemed to concentrate on that more than what I was trying to explain regarding the social anxiety I have, having few friends, not liking crowded rooms/places, getting angry when plans change at the last minute, the feelings of being different or an outsider I've had for as long as I can remember (I'm 39 now), the fact i socred 41 on the AQ test, that I don't natuarally understand what my partner is upset about, the fact i mimic others behaviour to "appear normal", not liking confromtation of any form (even if I'm in the right), my extremem defensiveness at critisism, lack of sarcasm radar, not liking being teased etc etc.
He said it was up to me but thinks any test will not show any form of Aspergers or Autism. He said he's write a letter but there was a long waiting list, and with that he turned to his computer and said goodbye.
I feel physicaly sick with anxiety
While it may not have been the best experience, it does sound as though you achieved what you went in there for, in that he is going to make the referral for an assessment. So you will know, one way or another.
He is right to prepare you for a long wait, based on what I have read the waiting lists vary from a few months to a couple of years depending on area.
It is also not a bad thing to consider other possibilities prior to the diagnostic assessment, since they do not always confirm an autism diagnosis, and being prepared for either outcome may be helpful, although he is being somewhat premature in suggesting the likely result before you've even had the assessment.
Good luck, I know the waiting can be a very anxious time.