Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello everyone my names Steven and i'm 29, i'll try to be as consise and as accurate as i can be and i'd appreciate any feed back, Thank you.
I had trouble being in School as a Child. In Primery School was branded as lasy up until Yr6 where i ended up attending some sort of centre out of School, i can't remember much of this or the feeling though i can remember the inside of my Headmasters Car whom took me there. I now know that his car at the time was a 1st model of the Rover 400 and since i have been able to identify the Stain Glass windows that i remember from that centre in can now identfy the location of this this centre as a result of passing by inprevious years.
At Secondry School i had much the same troubles and from Yr7 to Yr9 i'd moved 2 Schools. I never had any Friends and wasnt able to make any, my interest in certern subjects was quielled by peoples bulling and teachers lach of ability to see or identifiy how interested i was and most were messing about.
From leaving School i went to College and up on Leaning that they were just Teaching me at level 1 after 2 years i left feeling that this was a waste of time and they had let me down, I was under the impession that i was studing level2 after an early departure from School.
From then age of 18 i got my first job at 21 after being unemployed. My first Job was at Tesco on nights filling shelves and doing odd warehouse work while the shop was closed, after 2.5 years i left Tesco. After which i picked up a job as a Maintenance man at McDonalds near my home, id been a customer after each shift at Tesco for 2 years.
My Maintenace job by the end i was responsable of repairs to the fabric of the Building 'more than ican explain here' and contractors for specilist jobs.
I ordered the stock which was around £50,000 a month and orded the operational supplies with a budget of £800 per month though i could achive this easly in £650 per month with strict and reasonable controls and accurate proscedures
After this i started and finished my Taxi Liesence, as i thought i could learn at College and do this as its flexible.
I want to go to college to do Enginnering but worry abut my ability to be able to finish it.
Lately i have no idea whats happend or me or how to explain it, i use to be able to analise things and explain it in a logical context.
Now i feel confused, working on the Taxi 'which has been a year and a half' i have no idea how to process this. it feels like to much has happened i have non idea what to make of it.
I use to be able to put everything into order and now it feels like so much has happend i have no idea what to make of it.
I use to be able to anilise peoples behviour now it feels that its moving to fast for me to anilize.
Any questions Pleas ask as it helps me as much as you thanks Steven...
hi hope u are ok and that u have a good day and it is hard enough to express feelings when you are autistic let alone in a situation like you were in with the doctor and some feelings are hard to deal with.Not being able to express emotions is down to the autism and not your fault and social groups maybe hard but on the other hand you may meet like minded people an dmake a good friends who will understand you.But if easier take smaller steps and just talk to people like you or maybe just try it once.
I dont think unless you are talking to someone who has autism they wont fully understand you despite how much they care or want to and so what form of autism do you have and hope ok i ask where in the world do you live and what interests do you have.
You are the way you are with people because of the autism and social sitautions are difficult and you cant stop thinking and problem sloving as the brain functions differently in people with autism and this resuts in different actions like what you do and im the same I always worry.
Try and except who you are and realise how great you are being and coping and living with autism and be proud of what you have achieved and talk to like minded people and people who have autism.Also find the positives and think of the positives if a bit down and try and take one day at a time which i know can be easier said than done.
It is ok about the spelling and puncutation and as I said im here for you and to talk and be friends if you want even on facebook if easier for you and if ok with you I asked that and nice talking to you and take care and hopefully hear from you soon bye for now reply asap.