Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello everyone my names Steven and i'm 29, i'll try to be as consise and as accurate as i can be and i'd appreciate any feed back, Thank you.
I had trouble being in School as a Child. In Primery School was branded as lasy up until Yr6 where i ended up attending some sort of centre out of School, i can't remember much of this or the feeling though i can remember the inside of my Headmasters Car whom took me there. I now know that his car at the time was a 1st model of the Rover 400 and since i have been able to identify the Stain Glass windows that i remember from that centre in can now identfy the location of this this centre as a result of passing by inprevious years.
At Secondry School i had much the same troubles and from Yr7 to Yr9 i'd moved 2 Schools. I never had any Friends and wasnt able to make any, my interest in certern subjects was quielled by peoples bulling and teachers lach of ability to see or identifiy how interested i was and most were messing about.
From leaving School i went to College and up on Leaning that they were just Teaching me at level 1 after 2 years i left feeling that this was a waste of time and they had let me down, I was under the impession that i was studing level2 after an early departure from School.
From then age of 18 i got my first job at 21 after being unemployed. My first Job was at Tesco on nights filling shelves and doing odd warehouse work while the shop was closed, after 2.5 years i left Tesco. After which i picked up a job as a Maintenance man at McDonalds near my home, id been a customer after each shift at Tesco for 2 years.
My Maintenace job by the end i was responsable of repairs to the fabric of the Building 'more than ican explain here' and contractors for specilist jobs.
I ordered the stock which was around £50,000 a month and orded the operational supplies with a budget of £800 per month though i could achive this easly in £650 per month with strict and reasonable controls and accurate proscedures
After this i started and finished my Taxi Liesence, as i thought i could learn at College and do this as its flexible.
I want to go to college to do Enginnering but worry abut my ability to be able to finish it.
Lately i have no idea whats happend or me or how to explain it, i use to be able to analise things and explain it in a logical context.
Now i feel confused, working on the Taxi 'which has been a year and a half' i have no idea how to process this. it feels like to much has happened i have non idea what to make of it.
I use to be able to put everything into order and now it feels like so much has happend i have no idea what to make of it.
I use to be able to anilise peoples behviour now it feels that its moving to fast for me to anilize.
Any questions Pleas ask as it helps me as much as you thanks Steven...
Hi Steven,
Isolation can be a bad thing for a number of reasons. If you don't meet with people then your thinking and ideas can go off at a tangent because you aren't able to check what you are thinking against what other people think. An unreasonable idea can take root and you may find that you are becoming more reclusive and even more different and alienated from the rest of society.
A breakdown happens when you lose control of managing your work or your personal life. I don't know if alll breakdowns are the same (I don't expect so) - I had a breakdown/crisis last year and had become stressed/depressed/unreasonable. The diagnosis gave me an explanation for what had happened and it allowed me to understand how I was different from other people but also how we are not so different. People with ASD do care and have emotions and needs and desires, we often hide them and fail to express them well but being human means that we are social animals that need, and thrive best, on contact and exchanging ideas. If you want to do engineering then you have to be able to swap ideas with your teachers and fellow students. Being challenged and being able to challenge and interact is an important part of studying. Losing your emotions may be a sign of being in a bad mental state so I would recommend that you pursue the diagnosis and mental health treatment (ideally with CBT rather than drugs) through your GP.
Back to the exercise question. As an ASD I would recommend working out a way of exercising that gives you time alone. Running or cycling or swimming are all good methods as you can be alone with your thoughts and you do not need to interact with other gym members or to belong to c lub to do this.
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